Sunday, August 31, 2003
Confusion Sometimes just gets to me.. You Just Stand At A Junction.. not knowing which way to turn.. Yah Thats How i Am Feeling.. You get doubts.. And Crazy Conclusions in Your mind.. your mind Wanders And think Of All " what Ifs... If not.. If, If If...." And Sometimes.. You Just Do Something And Regret it Later... You Never Know If its The Right thing To Do Anot... but You Just Feel Bad.. Sad.. And you Try To Give In to the Problem after that.. Why Izzit things workout that way 4 me? i don't know...
29 Aug.
Soccer in the morn with the guys... Not An eventful1.. Things went upside Down...zz..
Went to Meet The J's.. All of them... Had lunch And Chatted At taka.. pool At douby..
Got A call From My Cell Group.. well My X cell grp.. i dunnoe...lol. Nah, Never had A Change In thought after they called..
Stone through the night..
30 Aug.
Stone.
Evening- Gathering.. Never Knew Abuse of Mother In Laws Happen In real Life.. Esp. In My Family.. My (Ji-Kor-Poh) *aunty a.k.a Grandpas Sister*
From A size Bigger than me to now... Bones.. Skin And Bones... Time Would Only know the Pain She Had Gone through Living With Her Son And Her Son's Wife.. Pair Of A$s.. now that She Is Leaving wif My 2nd aunt.. Its Luxury to her..
Lol.. Was So Dis.. At that Moment.. no.. Entire day i cant even bare to look at her for a minute... Yah I Was Able To Convinve every1 i was normal, Surisingly.. Den When Eating That Time Emotions Start To Do its thing And well.. Got Exposed By My Cousin.. younger 1.. i Think Her weight dropped from a whopping 80 maybe? to 40? 30? mind you.. Its B-o-n-e-s..
I promised That whatever happens.. I would do my duty as a son.. to both my parents..
Played pool after that.. yah midnight.. Cousins treat..
To See Skin And Bones
Torments With What only Time Could Understand
The Pangs Both Suffering In The Heart Stomach And Soul
There Is Much With What A person Can Hold
Inhuman Are Some As i was Told
Reality Is Always Blind.
Many A times
It Ends With A Bang..
Dried Smile
Blank Eyes
Thoughtless..
Just To Follow Time..
To Only React to what her Own Reactions Tell Her so..
Regardless to Showers Of Love Being Brought By Others..
Her Heart Stays Still..
Weeping tears From the Heart..
Blood Being Bled Dry..
Tears now form Sweats Of Agony..
No Humanly Emotion Could be Shown Through Those Eyes Again..
Ever I meet those Pigs.. Beating them up.. LITERALLY.. Is an option.
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Friday, August 29, 2003
You're the sad smile,the one that regrets nearly
everything and is constantly wondering about
what could have been.You're not happy with your
situation and usually blame yourself because of
the bad things that have happened.Cheer up.
What Kind of Smile are You?
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Thursday, August 28, 2003
Piano Keys Been Brought Alive..
Ive Started Again
No Stress As bind..
To Play It For A Different Reason..
To Play It, Letting Out All Emotions..
Through This Symphony
Transcending Time..
Confusion Amist..
Saddening Times..
Only These Keys Of black And White..
Know what Ive Been Through Time To Time..
An Unchained Melody..
Played Again And Again
To Chain Ones feeling..
Going Insane..
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Just Want to be With you..
To Experience How Is It..
To Follow You..
To Go With You..
Flowing Through The Waves of time..
Just To Get To Know You More..
Soaring High And Above..
I Lookout..
At The starlets of the Night..
And Wonder how You Have been..
Feeling Foolish.. In thinking
What Worth And Whats Not..
Yet..
Believing My instincts i carried On..
Far And beyond..
I'd Share These Thoughts With You.. Only you..
For Nobody Else Out There Is Of Significance Like You..
The Joy? The Pain?
Not Feeling Right As Rain..
Puzzled Over Inner Thoughts..
Still Studies... Well.. Life's Gotta Carry On..
To Know Time Is Of Only Essance
To Clear My Doubts Of Today...
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Past Have Been Driven..
Presently I've Ridden..
Through The Taste Of Joy..
Taste Of Bitterness..
Biting On My Tongue
Hurting In the Heart
I Feel No Satisfaction...
In All The things Ive Done..
Cause This Pain..
Been Caused..
Its not u or me
But It Starts hurting Once More
Like The Autumn Leafs Have Fallen
Once Again..
Its Just A Emotional Breeze...
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Zzz... Too tired to even write Anything!!! Came Back From D gang.. N well.. Started Chatting.. Now I have crying fingers And Sore Eyes... ._.
Im Very x 99999999999....... Happy Today. Just Want to Bang My Head through the roof or something...
Suppose to Game wif the guys... *sorri.. Still 4-5 games left..* Had Something on... Impt Lah! Geh gao Meh!!
Im Thinking Of Going Back To Piano... But Its gonna take alot alot alot Of Practice.. Waddaya Guys Think?
Well Ill Go In details Tmr... Anyway What Ive been Doing Past few Days? HAving D gang to Bunk At My House.. They Saw My Cousin oso during that day they left my house.. Well
Studied abit.. passed up late assign.. O dear... And yah... Saw kervin Today.. He went Study Wor!!! I need To Work Harder >_<
As You Guys Notice.. No pictures Being posted Recently... Will B adding Them Soon..
And To That Special Someone, Dont Brood Too Much Abt Stuffs.. Aint Healthy La.. Hope Everyone Have A nice Day!!!!!!
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Thursday, August 21, 2003
Thinking About you
I Lie Awake
In The Dark
Hurting Hard..
Been In My Mind always..
I smile At You,
Laugh With you..
Still, So Badly I wanted To Say Those 3 Words..
I Love You
Loneliness..
Never Can It B Different Without You Shedding Your Light In My Life..
To hurt you.. Is To Say how I feel..
Seeing you only 1nce... After How Long..
Never Has It Made Any Sense...
Why you Were the One..
But Only To Have You In My mind..
To Like... To love..
A Line Apart..
Yet, To cross that line to love..
Im Over The Moon..
To cross it To Like...
Im hurt.. tarnished.. Still
I Would Hope
that Im Given A chance to love..
Even if things do not have A hAppy Ending..
Its good.. To Love.. than not to b loved before...
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Tuesday, August 19, 2003
Today Started off Badly As I wokeup With A Bad Headache. Thought i was able to get to school on time And end up 20 mins. Late.. Well, Did My 1000 word essay During That Period Of "free Time" Since I never go for class. Later On Had BTF Lesson N things went o--k. Got Back on Track 4 my studies. Kinda Overjoyed When I found Out essay was to Be handed in on Fri.(delayed). Did my CATS n project Finish at last!! Lucky me.. Still I have My Powerpoint to do, Should b ok i guess..
Wokeup with a bundle of thoughts.. Anyway Life Has Its Ups N downs.. Think Ill Do a little snooze n later go Parkway..
Will B updating D blog more often. Promise ._.
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Saturday, August 16, 2003
Just Came Back From Dinner n its a All You Can Eat.. Gosh, So full le.. during dinner, told my kuzzins abt kervins "tickle my palm" joke, shld have seen their reaction.. priceless.. Tmr. my kuzzin still wanna play bbal.. Zz he so pro, I was force to go s a company.. Journey home from family gathering aint a good 1 s usual.. I cannot just 1nce go home w/out getting into arguments.. Wokeup Kinda Late.. well.. Anyway, was reading up on song composing And Im still thinking if i should enter D Monthly Peformance.. If I could Give my lyrics to Bigshot its all the better, If not.. I guess ill b spending more time rehearsing? hm... Been awhile since i peform on stage.. Damn.. I think got stagefright this time.. That Time Xing Came my house I play Piano Alreadi unstable thanx to being nervous.. well I spend a deal of time doing up blog, kept having errors.. Zz.. Well Im kinda happi wif what i see so, yah.. tomorrow sti.ll have projects.. 130 city hall.. ;=.- siGh.. D weekends r too short, They should have 3 weekends a week!!! And And.. 10 more hours a day!!
As we Part Our seperate ways,
The days we Have will still remain,
Memories are memories,
Come to Past,
Friendships we Have,
Will Always Last..
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blog updated
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Friday, August 15, 2003
Been A realli Long time since i updated the blog, Well anyway here i am. So many Things been going on these few days..
12 Aug
2 words-- HAIR CUT
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13 Aug
Met My childhood best friend in NP and guess what, Same class as Xing!!
Song Composing was ok, were hearing d new singers singing.
Some bigshot are finding good lyric-cist.. I wanna show my works to them but only 1 problem.. Gotta enter Monthly Peformance... *Doh*
14 Aug
D day i always look forward 2.
Anyway Had CATS n WAA lesson And well, Times just flies.. Yah D classes were ok and stuff but well, Kinda focusing my mind on other things when d t'cher was tokin...
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"Another Chance"
Adapted By
tAilspo0n
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If Only I could get another chance
Ill hold u so close
Straight in the heart
Smiling like things never happened
Still feeling so sour deep within
Wished that a laughter could chase all these hurts away
But that picture of you
Never dies
Never lies
.
No more 2nd chance
Just want to steal a second
A breath
To Feel your warmth again
looking face to face
Lips, close by
Remembering how you smiled at me and say
.
Singing this song,
Hoped to get you back
I finally known my rights and wrongs
See u cold and silent
So stern, I tried to hold you, been brushed away
Tried to talk, its over, she said
Vanish from my sight straight away
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Wednesday, August 06, 2003
just Finish Cca, Very tired cause wed is d most hectic day 4 me.. Nothing much, Played Games in d cca, Remix songs for fun, Bleh..
Anyway going for Songwriting course by NAC, Nvr knew dis day would come...lolx... Still, yah feeling moody and always thinking abit too much.. Well...
Gonna update Daily thoughts more often.... dont wanna flood dis page..lol... Inspiration + down n out n tired = Lots of daily thoughts..
Many things are better to be expressed through d heart, dan d mouth...
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